“I tried to express myself”
Yesterday, my school extracurricular aka nihon kurabu hold a membership regeneration. And crazily i tooked myself as a leader candidate. Eventhough i didn’t prepared before.
Why? I don’t know
It just seems like, “it’s my chance to speak out loud, express my opinion on public, and show them how i am and what i think about.”
At the beginning, i just felt like: “wtf am i doing here?” and at first i spoke nervously. Idk maybe they realized how unready i am lmao.
But slowly i got myself and i speak naturally as i am.
And finally, you know what?
I had selected as a final candidate!
On monday, i have to do regeneration pt.2
The final decision
Deep down, i just confused. Am i did the right things? Can i?
I afraid to lost my time, my heart says i want to do it. But my mind says that i should be more focus on school stuff. I won’t disappoint my parents. But i want to show up for the rare time. In other words, i want to restore my lost self confidence here 🙂
Idk what i should do, do my best or let myself defeated by others.
Hopefully i did right
Anything will be, i hope that’s what the best for me.
Wish me luck ^^